After I had Macie, I was itching to workout. This isn't a common feeling for me. I'm not the person that craves the gym and never misses a workout. Once I was cleared by the doctor, I purchased the 21 Day Fix workout program from Beachbody. This seemed like the perfect thing to kickstart my body post baby. I followed the program to a T with my workouts and nutrition, drank Shakeology daily and within three weeks I saw major changes to my body. I was back to pre-baby size.Read More
Through all of the busyness of the holiday season, I've lost a little bit of my creative focus. My creativity was manifesting itself in other ways, Halloween costumes and Friendsgiving decor, Elf on the Shelf and Christmas cookies. Creativity for me comes in many different forms. I feel fulfilled doing almost anything creative, from photography to baking, painting to lettering.Read More
For the last few years, I have been lucky enough to take the week between Christmas and New Year's off from work. Prior to this, I would take a few days before Christmas off and use that time to finish up any last minute prep or shopping for Christmas but that usually left me feeling exhausted and wishing I was home to recover the days after. I have learned that having the time after Christmas to organize, clean, and declutter has been priceless.Read More
At the end of 2016, I set aside time to create goals and plans for the new year ahead. I had signed up for a Year of Creativity course to begin to expand my creativity into new mediums. I created a word of the year,Read More
Hello April! I’m glad to see you. As I’ve mentioned a ton, I love the start of a new year for a chance to get a fresh start. In a way I also think the start of a new month is an opportunity for a reset. March was a tough month in some ways but great in others.Read More
Do you ever feel like your mind is in a thousand different places? I usually enjoy multitasking. I love being busy and I love having a lot going on around me. On the flip side though I've learn that I need time to myself to unwind, to feel human.
Lately I have made an effort to be more conscious of setting aside time for me, whether that time is spent relaxing or working on something creative. Often times these things are opposites and I feel the pull when it comes time to me to decide how to spend my free time.
During the day my mind is mostly busy with work. Of course there are times when I will get an email or hear a song that will remind me of something I want to do or something I need jot down but overall, I am set with my tasks at hand until I leave there for the day. From the time I get home until Macie's bedtime around 7:30, we are busy with dinner, baths, playtime, reading books, and bedtime. Once Macie is in bed sleeping, I am available for a little me time, sometimes however this is where the struggle begins.
Something along these lines is a familiar internal battle I have....
Should I take a relaxing bath and read?
Should I work on my Year of Creativity, I want to blog, improve my writing, and connect with the awesome group of women on this journey with me.
I could always grab my markers and spend some time lettering, or coloring and wind down for a bit with a glass of wine.
Do I go sit with Henley for an hour of snuggles, playtime, or TV with just her?
Should I start a movie with my husband to spend some time with him?
And as always, I could work on something around the house --- laundry, bathroom cleaning, picking up, etc.
It never ends. I want to do it all---I want to read all 27 notifications on Facebook and I want to read all of the unread blogs in my feed. I want to take a long, hot bath while reading a few chapters of my book. I want to close out the night with an awesome blog post that you all will love to read but realistically, that can't happen.
My mind is this open browser with a million tabs open and sometimes I feel like a toddler haphazardly clicking the mouse, opening and closing them all at random. Most nights I can successfully choose one of these options but sometimes I can't decide and end up being sucked into my phone by default and waste the whole night away, leaving me frustrated with myself.
I am glad I took the time to decide what I want to work on for me for this year because I feel now at least I am aware of the struggle. Before I wasn't even aware of these internal struggles I was having. I would just end up in bed dissatisfied at the end of the night because I didn't actually do anything, even becoming bitter at times.
I'm not perfect and I am still working to find the right balance for me but I'm getting there. I've had some great nights lately, even if it's just two hours of doing something that I want to do. I feel like acknowledging things I want to work on or things I want to do helps me to focus and not feel overwhelmed, therefore making me a happier, more relaxed, wife and mother.
Tonight was spent working on some watercolor hand lettering and finishing this blog along with some tickle time with Henley. I am not one to believe it's possible to have it all but sometimes it can feel pretty damn close.
- Reach my yearly goal for our savings account through set weekly deposits
- Retirement account setup for my husband
- Setup college accounts for the girls
- Payoff our main credit card balance
- Stick to Mint.com budget and check progress weekly
- Visit the dentist twice for cleanings
- Workout consistently three to four times a week
- Drink Shakeology daily
- Meet daily step goals
- Reach weight goal and maintain it
- Disney trips for girls' birthdays
- Schedule dates with the husband monthly
- Take the girls out on one-on-one dates
- Swim lessons for March for Macie
- Weekly lunch dates with husband
- Keep up on blogging at least twice weekly
- Monthly updates to my photobook
- Reading challenge 40 books
- Stay positive and above the B.S.
- Continue working on my creativity (hand lettering, calligraphy, and most recently photography)